Happy Father's Day!

*****I think that one of the best things about a blog is you can talk about whatever you want to and it’s a way to vent. So my message for today to all fathers- be there for your child! If you took the time to create them, take the time to cultivate a relationship with them as well! My father passed 5 years ago and I miss him everyday and trust no day goes by that I don’t wish that he was still here. I lucked up on this card but we all know that I wasn’t luck that made me pick it. It goes like this:

“As father and daughter, we’ve always been on pretty good terms. We’ve had some disagreements, but always with plenty of respect and affection to see them through. Now that I’m older, I can see even more clearly how truly lucky I’ve been to have a father like you. I appreciate the independence you gave me, the decisions you left up to me. And the times you let go so that I could learn things. I realize now that it wasn’t so easy for you to help me grow that way, but I guess that’s what being a father is all about… trying to just be there in all the right ways. Thank you, dad! Thanks for everything you did to help me be my own person. Words can’t really describe the respect and the love I feel for you… And it just gets deeper all the time.”

You taught me a lot and though I will admit you left out quite a bit as well, but I can’t blame you because you didn’t know any better. Who would of taught you how to be a dad when your father was not their for you as much? Who could of showed you when your father was already passed when you would have been able to understand? Be youngest couldn’t of been easy especially when you were born in the 30’s. things have changed so much I’m sure I wouldn’t of listened either way so I do not blame you for the things that you left out I just call all that I learned along the way character traits that make me who I am! I would change a lot but the best part in learning on my own is I know what I will teach my children not to do! You did what you could and I appreciate all that you and mom did! I love you and I miss you! *Muah*
♥ ♥
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I Wish . . .

i wish that things were oh so simple again like when i was a little girl, and all i needed to do for comfort was crawl up in my fathers lap as he would rub my back until i fell asleep.
i wish that i could pick up the phone and tell him all my problems as he gives me "the daddy version" of life's advice.
i wish that i could look him in the eyes and know that with his magical spells, powers and potions that it would all be better.
i wish that i could see him smile just one more time.
i wish that GOD gave me and him more time, so that i could have many more memories.
i wish that you were here to run errands with me, open my door, pump my gas you know the little things.
i wish you were here to laugh with me, smile with me and cry with me.
i wish you were here to listen to me and guide me through this crazy, mixed up world.
i wish that i could see my mom and dad, laugh, hold hands and cry together.
i wish that i was at my brother's baseball game and when i looked out into the crowd i saw my father with his video camera.
i wish that that special someone had to ask my father for his blessing to ask for my hand in marriage.
i wish that one day he would be walking me down that aisle and giving me away.
i wish that he would be able to spend time with my children, he could read them stories and rock them to sleep like he did me.
i wish that life did not have to end so abruptly for him.
most importantly, i wish that i had one more day with him, one more hour or just a few more minutes. . . but all i can do is wish because the reality is i lost my BEST FRIEND years ago and nobody will never ever take his place!

i miss you dad and i ♥ love ♥ you ever so dearly. . . shedding tears wishing you here!

Sept. 8, 2007

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I Wish . . .

i wish that things were oh so simple again like when i was a little girl, and all i needed to do for comfort was crawl up in my fathers lap as he would rub my back until i fell asleep.
i wish that i could pick up the phone and tell him all my problems as he gives me "the daddy version" of life's advice.
i wish that i could look him in the eyes and know that with his magical spells, powers and potions that it would all be better.
i wish that i could see him smile just one more time.
i wish that GOD gave me and him more time, so that i could have many more memories.
i wish that you were here to run errands with me, open my door, pump my gas you know the little things.
i wish you were here to laugh with me, smile with me and cry with me.
i wish you were here to listen to me and guide me through this crazy, mixed up world.
i wish that i could see my mom and dad, laugh, hold hands and cry together.
i wish that i was at my brother's baseball game and when i looked out into the crowd i saw my father with his video camera.
i wish that that special someone had to ask my father for his blessing to ask for my hand in marriage.
i wish that one day he would be walking me down that aisle and giving me away.
i wish that he would be able to spend time with my children, he could read them stories and rock them to sleep like he did me.
i wish that life did not have to end so abruptly for him.
most importantly, i wish that i had one more day with him, one more hour or just a few more minutes. . . but all i can do is wish because the reality is i lost my BEST FRIEND years ago and nobody will never ever take his place!
i miss you dad and i love you ever so dearly. . . shedding tears wishing you here!

Sept. 8, 2007

I lost my father in 04 and I must admit it was the worst thing that could of ever happened to me, I would never wish this type of pain onto anyone not even my worst enemy. I just thought that I would share in my loss to anyone who has every lost a parent.... know that it will not be easy but with prayer and time you can come to grips with it! GOD will never put something on you that you cannot handle, pray and stay close to him! Also, for anyone who does not have a close bond with your family try your best to get it right, nobody is perfect so whatever was wrong let it go and grow closer together. GOD bless! :-) Read More!

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