Sunday, April 12

I Wish . . .

i wish that things were oh so simple again like when i was a little girl, and all i needed to do for comfort was crawl up in my fathers lap as he would rub my back until i fell asleep.
i wish that i could pick up the phone and tell him all my problems as he gives me "the daddy version" of life's advice.
i wish that i could look him in the eyes and know that with his magical spells, powers and potions that it would all be better.
i wish that i could see him smile just one more time.
i wish that GOD gave me and him more time, so that i could have many more memories.
i wish that you were here to run errands with me, open my door, pump my gas you know the little things.
i wish you were here to laugh with me, smile with me and cry with me.
i wish you were here to listen to me and guide me through this crazy, mixed up world.
i wish that i could see my mom and dad, laugh, hold hands and cry together.
i wish that i was at my brother's baseball game and when i looked out into the crowd i saw my father with his video camera.
i wish that that special someone had to ask my father for his blessing to ask for my hand in marriage.
i wish that one day he would be walking me down that aisle and giving me away.
i wish that he would be able to spend time with my children, he could read them stories and rock them to sleep like he did me.
i wish that life did not have to end so abruptly for him.
most importantly, i wish that i had one more day with him, one more hour or just a few more minutes. . . but all i can do is wish because the reality is i lost my BEST FRIEND years ago and nobody will never ever take his place!

i miss you dad and i ♥ love ♥ you ever so dearly. . . shedding tears wishing you here!

Sept. 8, 2007


(vixenchick) said...

sorry for your loss.



LipstickOne said...

i lost my dad 10 years ago and the pain never goes away. i wish it dulls some for you. while you don't have another day, you do have years of memories that will never die.

be encouraged :)

Joi said...

@ vixen- thanks for your comment I appreciate that alot

Joi said...

@ lipstick- wow, so did it get any easier? thanks for your comment, i know thankfully i have plenty of great memories and video tapes for years :-)

Kanika said...

Yeah you made me a bit teary eyed on this one J


my bad Nika didn't mean too